as u guys remember the advert on tv where the girl goes

`mak,dua mat salleh"

n those mat salleh`s was Lampard n MESSI

n MESSI says `IN HD'

well

if ur slow,this shows that world cup is here !

daa!hahah

well the team im supporting is ENGLAND,SPAIN,GERMANY and PORTUGAL

if u hate those teams

all i can say is go to hell,hahahah

every1 has their own team so this are my teams,hahhaah

world cup fever

as u guys remember the advert on tv where the girl goes

`mak,dua mat salleh"

n those mat salleh`s was Lampard n MESSI

n MESSI says `IN HD'

well

if ur slow,this shows that world cup is here !

daa!hahah

well the team im supporting is ENGLAND,SPAIN,GERMANY and PORTUGAL

if u hate those teams
all i can say is go to hell,hahahah
every1 has their own team so this are my teams,hahhaah

mid years

well,
i just went through 3 weeks of hell...........
and guess what im finally done...
and now
HOLIDAYS people!!!!!
realaxation time,stress free,no need to listen to teachers nagging,no need to see the faces of those whom u hate!....
fuck all of it...relax....
eventhough its the holidays,
but im kinda sad though!
no more hugs,no more meeting friends(untrue)
I MISS U GUYS.....

and the worst part is that half a year is gone n those form fives out there

u have 5 months left to enjoy school n the friends we love...

kinda sad thinking about that...hahhaha

but anyways,

life has to go on!

and yah,

world cup is on...

may the best team win

sorry

sorry guys....
just got the time to update my blog...
well,since its been so long and there`s so much that i have to share....
so hold on aite

Exam

mid term`s going on

i DOnt understand

I  dont understand what do people
want from me?
when i have problems...
n i tell people
they say i want attention?
but then when  i keep my problems to myself
all they say is
zi knapa potong tangan lg?
or zi ok x,ctala..
or zi jgnla g pototng tangan,citala prob ko kat kita...
but i when i tell them,
all they`re gonna say is zi nak attention
do i want that?
well,i dont!
i rather keep my problems to myself
i really wanna know what people wants from me...
i dont understand

how i feel

what do u do,

when all u want,,

is to feel alive,

to be loved,

to feel like u belong,

i didnt know what to do

but in the end i found a way to let it all out :(

its about me,

doesnt to know to live my life without pain,

without hate,without distrust,without anger,without lies,

this is about me!

to say:

i hurt myself,

nearly everyday,

i just want to be normal,

but it seems that i`ll never be

there`s to much pain that time cannot erase,

to survive i ,

cut and scratch myself,

unable to control the pain in my life,

i cant forget,the words u said,

the things u did, the look in your eyes,

the pain u made me feel

i feel worthless,

i feel hurt,angry,alone,used, lost and so much more,

i am bad,

i am just everything i hate

who cares anyway?

i hate that i just cant trust anyone

not even myself...:(

i hate being afraid,

that im just gonna lose another person....

i hate my body,

i hate ME,

everything feels wrong,

and i have to punish myself for all my mistakes,

i feel like crap that i cant wash away,

can only try cut it out,

and this works,

at least for a while,

im caged inside

and im tired of it,

and sometimes i just wont do anything else but QUIT

i hide my sadness by the fake smiles that i put on every single day

Im not seeking attetion,

i do it because

i wanna die,

to be able to breath again,

to ease my mind from all the thoughts

memories and everything i cant let go of....