as u guys remember the advert on tv where the girl goes

`mak,dua mat salleh"

n those mat salleh`s was Lampard n MESSI

n MESSI says `IN HD'

well

if ur slow,this shows that world cup is here !

daa!hahah

well the team im supporting is ENGLAND,SPAIN,GERMANY and PORTUGAL

if u hate those teams

all i can say is go to hell,hahahah

every1 has their own team so this are my teams,hahhaah

world cup fever

as u guys remember the advert on tv where the girl goes

`mak,dua mat salleh"

n those mat salleh`s was Lampard n MESSI

n MESSI says `IN HD'

well

if ur slow,this shows that world cup is here !

daa!hahah

well the team im supporting is ENGLAND,SPAIN,GERMANY and PORTUGAL

if u hate those teams
all i can say is go to hell,hahahah
every1 has their own team so this are my teams,hahhaah

mid years

well,
i just went through 3 weeks of hell...........
and guess what im finally done...
and now
HOLIDAYS people!!!!!
realaxation time,stress free,no need to listen to teachers nagging,no need to see the faces of those whom u hate!....
fuck all of it...relax....
eventhough its the holidays,
but im kinda sad though!
no more hugs,no more meeting friends(untrue)
I MISS U GUYS.....

and the worst part is that half a year is gone n those form fives out there

u have 5 months left to enjoy school n the friends we love...

kinda sad thinking about that...hahhaha

but anyways,

life has to go on!

and yah,

world cup is on...

may the best team win

sorry

sorry guys....
just got the time to update my blog...
well,since its been so long and there`s so much that i have to share....
so hold on aite

Exam

mid term`s going on

i DOnt understand

I  dont understand what do people
want from me?
when i have problems...
n i tell people
they say i want attention?
but then when  i keep my problems to myself
all they say is
zi knapa potong tangan lg?
or zi ok x,ctala..
or zi jgnla g pototng tangan,citala prob ko kat kita...
but i when i tell them,
all they`re gonna say is zi nak attention
do i want that?
well,i dont!
i rather keep my problems to myself
i really wanna know what people wants from me...
i dont understand

how i feel

what do u do,

when all u want,,

is to feel alive,

to be loved,

to feel like u belong,

i didnt know what to do

but in the end i found a way to let it all out :(

its about me,

doesnt to know to live my life without pain,

without hate,without distrust,without anger,without lies,

this is about me!

to say:

i hurt myself,

nearly everyday,

i just want to be normal,

but it seems that i`ll never be

there`s to much pain that time cannot erase,

to survive i ,

cut and scratch myself,

unable to control the pain in my life,

i cant forget,the words u said,

the things u did, the look in your eyes,

the pain u made me feel

i feel worthless,

i feel hurt,angry,alone,used, lost and so much more,

i am bad,

i am just everything i hate

who cares anyway?

i hate that i just cant trust anyone

not even myself...:(

i hate being afraid,

that im just gonna lose another person....

i hate my body,

i hate ME,

everything feels wrong,

and i have to punish myself for all my mistakes,

i feel like crap that i cant wash away,

can only try cut it out,

and this works,

at least for a while,

im caged inside

and im tired of it,

and sometimes i just wont do anything else but QUIT

i hide my sadness by the fake smiles that i put on every single day

Im not seeking attetion,

i do it because

i wanna die,

to be able to breath again,

to ease my mind from all the thoughts

memories and everything i cant let go of....

my confessions

dear readers,

i guesss one thing life has thought me

is

that people can`t be trusted...

i`ve lost a lot people in my life...

people come and go,

but i just wish that sometimes they would stay...

i may have been smilling all this time

but on the inside

everything has holes and everything is broken...

i have problems,

i look for my friends...

and in the end they just turn around and say

xzie is just seeking attention

why?

friends say that when u have problems

go to them

but what for because in the end

thats what their gonna say to u

after that incident i`ve learnt that

nobody can be trusted and that

its better that i keep

my problems to myslef than to share it with people

the conclusion is

im lonely and my life sucks!

if u think that my judgement is wrong than i apologize...

MY FRIENDS

I just wanna see you

when your all alone

i just wanna catch u

in my hands,

i just wanna be there

when the morning light explodes

on your face it radiates,

i cant escape

i love u till the end,

i cant smile without u,

Friends stand by each other just like how u stood by me

all this time

thank u are`nt just the words to say to u

u mean the world to me

i love u guys

no matter what,

i wont forget u

i want u to know that i miss u

and think of u every single day

i dont know the title for this blog

A story of friendship,

long ago lived to friends and they were A and B,

both of them were boys but one was younger than the other......

they got to know each other not long,

but they were closed like they`ve known each other a long time....

after some time,

A felt that B and him were not close anymore,

but A kept quiet.....

after some time,

they were`nt that close anymore,

A didnt know why and wanted to know why,

they had a fight once but they got back together after that,

but A realized that they were not close anymore,

A tried his best to get close back to B....

Everything B asked,A got it for him

when B was feeling down,A tried to comfort B

A tried his best....

it was like B didnt care....

one day,

A met someone and was told that B is a backstabber and had told that person that he doesnt like A,A was only looking for attention,he hated A....

A was devastated.....

after that incident,A didnt trust anyone....

people say that friends come and go,friends are`nt forever?

but some say thats friends stick together till the end of time....

i wonder which is true?

i wonder why do friends leave?

why cant they stay?why do they have to leave u alone?

who has the answers to my questions?

TO U

                                 

       AKU

                                     Benci     HATE                                          Backstabbers

                           ORANG

                  YG

                                     KURANG

                               AJAR

PERTANDINGAN KAWAD FORMASI 2010

Dear readers,
as we all know that SMK SSAAS just had the formation competition
and guess what,
Kadet Remaja Sekolah made history....
for the 1st in our school history,
KRS wont the competition for the 1st time.....2 weeks of intensive training paid off after all....
im proud of my platun.....
thannks guys for making my last year in Smk SSAAS the most meaningful year ever....:D

KEM PERDANA

hey guys,
i went for the kem perdana...!
it was held at gunung angsi,ulu BENDUL which is in Negeri 9

I was ONE of the 81 Contestants who reached the Top of the mountain...

Friday,
we had to gaher at school at 2.30pm....

we gathered n listened to the teacher`s talk = .=

n we took our bags n went straight to the bus...

i was seperated from all of te form 5.....

i was in the same bus with edzrie,hairul,muiz and most of the form 4`s...
i sat beside edzrie...

we made hell a lot of noise on the way there,hahaha

(sorry Teacher NORLIN)
we reached ULU BENDUL at  around 4.45 pm...

we took our bags n left it there in the jungle...

n we had briefing...
1st we had a game....

n it was kinda fun....after that we had to go into groups....

i was the leader of group no 4 as known as PON-PON BOLEH,

after that we had to make our cheer,

n ours was (shibidibidi,shibidibi bang-bang,shibidibi boom-boom,shibidibi PON-PON boleh)

hahah
the weirdest cheer ever but it was the funniest 1 i`ve ever heard...
hahaha
before we were allowed to get into our camps,

we had to sing the song the climb by Miley cyrus...

this was because the next day we had to climb this mountain,hahahah

we went to bed,

in my camp was me,muiz,hairul and edzrie...

Saturday,

the time all of us was waiting for,

the adventure begins....

the road to the mountain was rather scary  and slippery and muddy,hahahha

it was fun and challenging though,hahhaa

as we were going up,

some people got left behind and 2 of them was my team members...

edzrie and fatin....

so i stayed back to be with them...

my mission was to get edzrie up there....

after 3 1/2 hours i managed to get him up there....

i was proud of him...
it was tiring but the tiredness paid off...
the scenery was breath taking....
after reach down,
we went straight to the river to take a bath...
enjoy nature people,ahahahah

at night,

we had the kebudayaan night,
we were supposed to eat dinner but luck wasnt on our side as it started to rain heavily...
n the best part was all of our camps was leaking...
we had to move our bags to the surau,
everyone was soaking wet,
n we continued with our activity....
the boys slept at the astaka n the girls slept in the surau...

Sunday,
we all woke up late...
we were exhausted....hahahaha
the journey back was diffrent...
we were watching bujang lapok n because of exhaustion most of us took a snooze,hahah

this trip has tought me a lot,
firstly,
never look down on others,second,
never give up....
3rd,
take care of nature and much2 more.....

*i just wanna say and ask all of you,
please take care of our nature,recycle,
dont litter....

if we continue to destroy earth,

we wont be able to enjoy god`s gift which was nature....

15 th of april

smk ssaas rugby match

our school has won the 1st n second match and has qualified to semi final round...

today was rather a happening day for me as it was full of emotions....

firstly,

i skipped school,shocking right?

hahaha

i did it to support our school,

6.45 am,

i arrived at school and waited for anas to come...

anas reached at 7,

so we went to the taxi stand to wait for mubin,

after mubin arrived,

we took a cab to anas`s house...

from there,

anas drove his dad`s car to sec 16...

we went for breakfast in some rundown restaurant,hahah

after breakfast we went straight to the school....

as we reached there,

we found out that the match was only gonna start at 12.30...

it was getting bored,

so i came up with this brilliant idea,

we go to sunway!LOL
anas agreed,

so me,mubin,baim and anas went off to my house to get clothes n went straight to sunway,

smpi sunway,

dgn kedai pun x habis buka lagi,

kitaorg pun cm hero jalan sini,sana....

n then tba2 baim lapar g kat satu kdi kebab ni kat tepi kedai banana peel tu,

dia  beli chicken kebab ngan air coke(YUMMY)

n kita plan nk tgk movie but baim xnk so kitrorg pn jalan2 skali melencong plak ke topman / topshop....hahahha

masuk kedai tu,

tgk2 je baju n zi dengan penuh sakit ati nye tengok baju,ahahah

then skali baim offer suruh amik apa je yg kita nk,(ala baim,dia mmg KAYA)

n mubin g bagitau dia yg aku suka satu baju ni...

n baim pun force srh g try la ...

n in the end,dia belikan...

THANK YOU IBRAHIM MUKHLIS B.ZA'IM

after that we went straight  back to sec 16 as his match was gonna start...

semi finals ( SSAAS VS SMKS7)

It was sad because ssaas lost to sevens but we were proud of them...:D
after the game me and anas and mubin decided to call it a day n go home...

1.45 pm

we sent mubin home n me and anas went to his house

we both took a shower and got changed n went straight to ecah`s house

to all of u who dont know who ecah is she is khairunisa bt.? from 5c..

she`s atiqah`s bff

2.30 pm,

we were running late n her  majesty was just only taking her shower when me and anas reached her house..

the funny part was,

she came out running without her tudung,was`nt wearing her shoes n just got right in the cab....

the cab was like her changing room -.-"

after all the hell in the cab,

she started applying her sun block...

1st she used hers but she wasnt about the spf value so she borrowed anas...

if she could,she would have finished the whole tube,hahahah

sorry ecah:D

after that we went for kawad....

n that was it.....

                                                        THE END

im back

hello guys:D
sorry for not updating my blog for a very long time,
i`ve been busy with stuff....
within this period of time that i`ve not been updating my blog,
a lot has happened n i cant wait to share with u,
so i hope u enjoy:D

u made me happy

thanks to the person i call my BFF

u made me realize how i needed u...

sorry for everything i did and thanks for forgiving me.....

I CANT SMILE WITHOUT YOU :D

hahahahahha

21st of march,the best night kut -.-

shisha night,huhu

kluar kul 11.45....

first time kluar awal,hahaha

mlm tu was diffrent....

plg pelik,penat n cool....

yg confirm g me,umar,anas n acap k...:D

1st g umah umar...

then umar lapar,so g kfc....

then makan snek plate.....YUM

after that g umah umar balik sbb ada prob skt...

then online,pussy wagon,bla3....

kul 1 am kluar balik...

jalan kaki g 7....

it started raining.....

dh basah kuyup suma....

n then nmpk convoi motor(mat pet la kut)

then continue jalan tba2 nampak plak ada convoi keta beetle

agak cool r...

me n umar plak menggila,

mula nyanyi lagu kat tgh jalan suma....

hujan benti time kitaorg betul2 smpi 7....(weird)

haha

smpi kdai amuk(tmpt kita slalu shisha) tba2 kdi tu tutup....

so call anas n decided x yah shisha so lpk dpn umah acap k....

nmpk ada convoi keta myvi,hahahaha

me n umar named that day MALAM CONVOI....

hahahaha

that day was fun walaupun x shisha suma me n umar had a massive time:D

sorry

hey readers,
sorry lama x update blog,
been busy -,-
tp byk benda nk cita so baca jela

away for sometime

hey guys sorry x update blog...
i`ll be away for few days,
tight schedule and stuff...
and not really in the mood for blogs for now,LOL

SMK SSAAS 2010 ROADRUN

on the sixth of fevruary 2010
Smk ssaas had our 5th roadrun....
it started at 7.30 am...
it was another schooling day but this why we`re not learning anything,LOL
we gathered in our school hall
we were separated into our houses...
it started with a form 6 pervert named ashli giving us the warming up...*sorry la but i hate that son of a bitch
then we started running,LOL
we ran from our school,
to the lake nearby...

we had to run the whole lake,hahah
(that was bloody tiring)
i was the 19th person who
completedthe race,
it was rather disappointing though....

but anyways,
my aim was to contribute to my house points and i did...:D

Some people call themselves your friends,
but why wont they understand what your going through,
they see u sad,
and they think that its a small matter when they dont even know...
sometimes they know your problems
but they think that it will be okay....
maybe it will...
people think that losing someone is a small matter...
yes you`ve lost some people to...but have you ever lost as many people as me to the extend that i dont and just cant lose anyone anymore....
people think that they know everything about me and my life,
but truth is that you dont know a single thing about me...
my life is the life no one would wanna have...that i can bet with u!
so dont judge me,
you think you understand but the fact ....you dont!
i just wish somebody would....
you get angry when i do something crazy or when i smoke,
but whats the point?
dont worry,
im not gonna quite anythg
even the closest friend of mine always argue with me...
he knows but sometimes he doesnt understand how i feel or what wrong with me....
people that i care and love have left me many times,
sometimes i`m just all alone....
i dont need anyone anymore....


I`m sorry if i hurt you....but this is the fact!
Please understand