happy new year guys

hey guys...
2010 is here...
so forget the past and keep moving forward,hahha

nobody understands...

a story about a friend of mine
he told me everytihg about his life,
n this is his life
for the past week,
i`ve been feeling lonely,sad,confused n depressed...
i wonder why god gave me such a life,
people come and go in your life....
i became use to that feeling,
but everything has its limits...
i`ve lost many people in my life,some died and some just left without saying a word...
Dad,
why did u leave me?
mom,
why are u doing this to me?
friends,
why does`nt anyone understand...
people look for me when they need me but why is`nt there any1 for me to talk to?
i came home today..
suddenly i saw a black BMW outside my house...
it was my dad..
i went into my house,
i saw him drinking...
i asked if he was ok,
he just looked at me,
i wondered why,
he asked me,
why am i like this,
why am i worthless,
he called me rubbish n started cursing..
i was used to it,so i didnt actually care...
he than said,
u owe me 400 right,
i said yes...
he told me to use the money to buy my books n my school supplies....
i was devastated...
where am i suppose to get that amount of money?
i Hate u dad...
why did u exist in my life?
everyday i ask god,
why he gave me such a life
why did my mom adopt me if she doesnt want me?
these words are all i think off....
I HATE MY LIFE,
HATE My parents...:(

AMIRA ANIS

Ahahha,
I xbanyak bini...
sorang pn xde ok...hahaha
i should thank u actually,
u brought light to my life,
u were there when i needed u...
n U are my gedik,
so when u need me,i`ll always be there for u....
bukan u slalu ngigau ke?
ahahahaah...
LOVE u:D

thanks guys for being my friends...

recently i got to know some new people...
they are the best!
even though im new to them but they treat me as 1 of their close friends...
Acap k!
his realy friendly...
i got to know him not more than 3 months but his close to me...
his a good friend...
honestly,i have`nt met any1 like him......
dia x kerek,dia x poyo,dia sanggup jd driver amik kitaorg semata2 nk lpk...
even though we are from diffrent schools... but he treats me cm membe dia sendiri...
thnks acapk,aizat,din,imran,acap fffttttt/acap s,hahahahahah..
diaorg mmg the best...:)
thanks every1 for accepting me for who i am and sorry r kalau aku ada sshkan korang ke wat korang jd driver....haahah....
p:s/sorry aku xde gmbr korang so aku ltk la gmbr 2...hahah

FOR YOU

A friend has no use for fancy cars,big homes or desinger clothes,
A hug will do just fine,
True friens doesnt care if your rich or poor,
clever or dull,
smart or dumb,
Give..em your heart and he..ll give u his,
How many people can u say that about?
How many people can make u feel rare and pure and special?
How many people can make u feel extraordinary?
But u can And thats why i..ll never stop loving u

U!

I was told that 1 person can change a lot in ones life,
i didnt believe until it happened to me...
when that person existed in my life,
my life changed...
i was happy........
that person meant the world to me,
but all that has changed when that person left...
my happiness,joy and everything just left with that person...
took away everything,
i cant smile anymore,
there`s no point smiling to me,
i wish i could turn back time to change everything...

the whispers of a crushed soul

Everyday I sit for hours n think about one thing

Love…

Now,I don’t think about it anymore

All I feel is pain like a knife is piercing through my heart,

The cut is deep

All of this made me asked u god

Why did u give me parents n friends that in the end prentends

And betrays me.

Made love no more…

I feel like dying

So that I could get away from all of this

I wanna disappear forever….

Sumthings disappear when ur gone,

My heart n soul…

Somethings leave when u leave

My laughter n my happiness,

My life left me as well..

While im still here

Trying to calm myself without you

Sumthing i wrote for you

im sorry i like you,
im sorry that i care could you just leave me alone in my head,
why dont you try to understand how i feel inside thought you were the person but you were only what i thought
You were nice,You were kind, You were everythingon my mind
but you were`nt for me and you made me see,
that i couldnt be loved, so now let reminice and think of what we`ve done could you just forget,
that i realy cared,
and could`nt u just let it be,
i would be me,
if u tried to be you,
sorry that i cared,
sorry that i misunderstood,
i was jealous, yes i was,yes i was
, but it was 1 night and 1 broken heart of mine that lost,
You didnt lose anything but you still acted that way why couldnt you just let me be and leave my heart alone
tonight it`ll be all better if you could just try to change yourself,
to be like you were before
, singing a song,
making a rhyme,
could`nt you see that i was so blind, could`nt you be the person in this rhyme,
i`ve gotto tell you how i feel with this song,
but its not real,
you would`nt understand me you`ll just leave me here alone now and again......

The life of a singer

You being a singer,
You`ve come to listen to
the best of my songs
I`ll sing them all to you
i`ll sing to a life
of laughter and sorrows
i sing to the sad times
sing to the good times
I am the singer
And i`m here to sing
And if you follow me
my song,i`ll share with you
People,stop me in the street
you can hear them say
`hey u"
You`ve got it made
Plenty of women and god times
Nobody asks if i suffer or cry
If i got a pain
that hurts deep inside
i am the singer
before singging is my thing
And audiences pay
To hear me out
Today i dedicate to you

the best n the most tiring day ever...

31 october...
most the people knew as halloween,
but this year it was something diffrent...
the All American Rejects performed n rocked my world in bkt jalil...
2.00 am
i still was online looking for tickets for ali...
i fell asleep at abou 3 am...
i got up back at 8.30 am



10.00 am..
i met up wih uzair,anas and ali at the train station...
we took a train from here to kl sentral...
form there we took a cab to pavilion..
we went to catch a movie...
Jennifer`s body actually....
the movie was at 2.20 pm...
we went for lunch...
after that we went walking,
i bought a t shirt...
we went for the movie...
the movie was awesome...
the movie finished at 4.45

4.45pm
we took a monorail n stopped at kl sentral
from there we took a cab to Bkt Jalil...
the line to enter was freaking long...
but we had some tricks up our sleeves...
we squized n pushed till we got in...(evil laugh)
we got a realy good place....
we were 100 metres away form the stage...
but i had to get out of the line...
bie wasnt there...
so i waited for her...
sh came late..
i made her do the same thing(evil laugh)(sorry bie)

7.00 pm
the show finnaly started..
the starting was kinda boring...
they started with 3 malaysian bands...
disagree,pop shuvit,one buck short..
the funniest thing was everybody was booing them...after thy finished peroforming,
we waited for an hour plus....

9.45pm
they finally came out...
tyson came with a pagoda,skinny jean n a red indian head thingy...it was halloween
they began with move along...
after that they sang i wanna,when the world comes down,faling apart,damn girl n few more...
they perform it ends tonight....
their last song was gives you hell...
we were all jumping n then something weird happened
the were this group of guys enjoying themselves behind us....
suddenly they pulled me n we started jumping and singging together...
we were kind athe center of attention that time...
those guys rocked....
unfortunately everything has to come to an end...
after the concert we split up...
anas,uzair,ali and shaheen went for shisha...
i was just to tired to join them...
i went with bie...
i got intoduced to kak nadia`s bf...
after we dropped her bf at section 2...
we went for a late dinner at section 7....
we were starving...
thanks bie for the food....

i reached home at about 1.45 am...

Ouh shoots,Exams

Finals are here...
hate exams

Father

Adress this letter
to my dear father

i know u as complete as u know
i guess its better u didnt bother
All of our truths should be left alone
I learned the things u never showed me
Took the chances you`d have blown
And to this day you remained a complete unknown
Your out there somewhere
I dont know if you care at all
It seems that you dont
Its as if the day will never come,so you remain a complete unknown
So many years
been ignored
You have been gone without a trace
im getting used to knowing you are just a name without a face....

1st blog

this is my 1st blog so dont aspect much....